If you have been following my blog for a while, you'll know that every August we attend the Wilberforce Agricultural Fair and I usually enter some things into the Homecraft Exhibits. This year was no different and I thought I would share my entries and let you know how I did. If you want to see how I did the last few years, click here, here and here.

Each year I have great intentions about all the things I will make/do for the next year and then they never actually happen. I should probably just stop making such lofty goals that I never attain. Oh well. I didn't do too shabby with my winnings this year and I'm proud of that.

Photo credit to Trish Easton Photography
Banana Muffins - 1st
Strawberry-Rhubarb Jam - 1st
Raspberry Jam - 1st
Relish - 1st
Yellow Beans - 1st
Green Beans - 1st
Oatmeal Cookies - 2nd
Brown Eggs - 2nd
Pickled Beets - 2nd
Dilled Cucumber - 2nd
Date Squares - 3rd
Bread & Butter Pickles - 3rd
Knitted Dishcloth - 3rd
Strawberry Jam - Didn't place

My proudest accomplishment was the banana muffins. I made gluten/dairy/corn free muffins and entered them into the normal banana muffin category without telling anyone about their limitations. And they won! I am seriously proud of myself on that one.

Photo credit to Trish Easton Photography
Isn't my niece a cutie?

Anyways, that sums up how I did at the fair this year. Until next year!

Haha, remember how these posts were supposed to be a weekly series? So much for that idea! Last time I posted about my gardens was the end of May. Oops!

Well here is a quick update for you guys, with a few pictures that I got Dan to snap last night before our supper company arrived.

I am so proud of myself because as of last night, the entire garden is weeded! All at once!

Everything is doing well and we are starting to get veggies from it regularly. We've been picking tomatoes, spinach and beans for a few weeks now and yesterday we got some carrots for the first time.

The beets are ready to eat but we haven't gotten around to them yet and I'm pretty sure that if we dug up some potatoes, we could have a small meal of them.

I love this time of year and I love how alive and happy the garden looks. Vegetable gardening makes me happy. Oh and so do chickens.

If you garden, how is yours doing?

My poor blog is falling apart, I only posted once in July. ONCE! How sad and pathetic. Sigh. Life is just so busy lately and blogging has not been a priority. I feel bad about it but I can't seem to figure out a way to fix it. Other than chaining myself to the computer chair and forcing myself to write a post, which doesn't sound pleasant and probably wouldn't turn out a very interesting read for you guys.

So while I apologize for the lack of posting, I will not promise that I will be back in full swing anytime soon, because I honestly don't know if I will be or not. I will do my best to post when I can and share what I can and hopefully that will be enough to keep my readers happy for now. Maybe the fall will be a better time for blogging?

My sister Cora is getting married August 22nd and since I am the maid-of-honour (I refuse to call myself a matron), I was responsible for throwing them an awesome wedding shower. Not to be too vain or anything, but gosh I did good.

I found all my inspiration from Pinterest (obviously) and I executed it with perfection. The party was held at my mom's house, which was the ideal backdrop for a camping themed party.

Instead of a guestbook we had them sign Jenga pieces
I had a few games to play and had amazing prizes for the winners.

Giant memory
Prize table
We also played the shoe game, just for some entertainment. It was a total hit, like always.

I think that one of my favourite decorations/food was the trail mix bar. It turned out even better than I had hoped.

Ah, it was perfection. Wouldn't you agree?

The food was also pretty great and I tried my hardest to stick with a camping theme while also making it tasty and easy to put together. I think I succeeded.

So much deliciousness.

The shower went beautifully and everyone loved it and had fun. All the planning and work that I put into it was totally worth it.

Now to get back to other wedding prep!

Time for another goal check-in!

1. Take a CPR/First Aid course Done! I had to take one for my volunteer work and I really enjoyed it.
2. Put $2,000 extra on the mortgage
3. Read 30 books I've read 27, which is a huge jump from 3 at the end of March. Go me!
4. Go on a canoe camping trip Not yet, but it is booked for the middle of July
5. Run my 3rd 5k I haven't even started running yet...
6. Take a class (such as pottery, dancing, etc) with Dan We just completed a West Coast Swing dance class and loved it so much, we've signed up for another!
7. Finish bedroom makeover Not done yet but the furniture is!
8. Fix flower gardens I still have 2 left to deal with but I'm waiting until next Spring to tackle them. I did 4 huge ones though, so I'm calling this done for this year.
9. Build back patio
10. Read a Shakespeare book
11. Clean out car
12. Get wedding and engagement rings soldered together We have found a place who will do it, but are still contemplating whether we want to go ahead and do it or not.
13. Learn to knit mittens
14. Get a membership at a library Done!
15. Practice piano once a week Definitely not doing this faithfully, I need to step up my game.

I'm still a little slow on the get go but I'm hoping that by my next check-in I'll be able to cross more off. I finished 3 more over the last three months and have made good progress with some others. I'm also aware that some of these won't get done this year, but that's okay. 

How is everyone else doing with their goals? Vicky, I know you made some!

So remember how we have been building our own bedroom furniture? We started with the bed and are totally in love with how it turned out. Then we moved on to the side tables and were thrilled with how they tied into the bed, while adding a level of brightness to the room with the white paint. Next up, the dresser! Except for this one didn't go quite as quickly as the previous items of furniture. As in, we were living with this dresser set up for quite some time. Even after the room was finished being painted and we moved the bed back in, our clothes stayed in the other room on the futon for 3 more months. Talk about inconvenient.

We finally finished the dresser the beginning of June and have been enjoying it ever since.

Our problem with the dresser came from not having much time to work on it. Whenever I say "we" worked on the dresser or "we" made the furniture, I'm really saying Dan. He was the brains behind the operation and he did 99.9% of the work as well. He has been crazy busy with work the last 6 months so he didn't have a lot of free time to spend on the dresser. But slowly, very slowly, it came together. (Excuse the crappy iPhone pics)

We didn't realize how incredibly huge it was until we maneuvered it into our bedroom. And then the real size hit us. IT IS HUGE! But there was nothing we could do about it at this point, unless we wanted to start over again, which we didn't. So we just have a huge dresser.

I did help considerably with the painting, which was my contribution to the project. And I kept him company while building the rest of it. That is why I still feel comfortable saying "we" built it.

The drawers are huge and fit all of our clothing easily. With our old set, we used two dressers to fit all of our clothes but were hoping to go down to one dresser with this new set. The plan was to get rid of clothes but instead, we just built a bigger dresser. I still want to go through everything though and minimize.

We used these plans for the Madison Dresser from Ana White's blog and then tweaked them to suit us. That's the way we like to roll, use plans for guidelines only.

The bedroom is really coming together and I love the flow of the furniture with the colours of the wall and bedspread. Basically, I'm totally in love with how things are looking so far. We are still a little ways from completion but we are making good and steady progress. Next up, some decorating!

What do you think of our dresser? Do you love it?

I'm having a hard time lately. Like I mentioned in my last post, the 5 year mark of trying has hit me really hard. As in, I all of a sudden feel in a panic to get a baby. I don't want to wait an indefinite amount of time before it's my turn. I want one now. Heck, if I'm being really honest, I wanted one yesterday. Or 5 years ago.

I hate how infertility steals so much from me. It steals a lot of joy from life. It's hard to be patient and content in ones circumstances when they aren't the circumstances I was planning for. It's hard to remain hopeful when nothing has ever worked. It's hard to be happy for others when my heart is breaking inside. 

I've also been dealing with feelings of guilt lately. It's my body that is failing us. It's my eggs that seem to have issues. It's my uterus that can't seem to hang on to a pregnancy. It's my emotions that are off the wall. It's all my fault. Which I know isn't entirely true. And I know no one is blaming me. But it's how I've been feeling nonetheless.

The wait is absolutely killing me today. Five years feels like too long to wait. And another five may kill me. In fact, another year may do it. How much more can I emotionally take? What will be my breaking point? When will I say "enough is enough"? When should we give up? 

Everything is too much today. I can't handle today.