Thursday, December 1, 2016

My House is in Shambles

For those of you who have been asking for some updated pics of our house, here you go. Basically, this just shows everything a mess because that is what it looks like. I'll hopefully be able to take nice finished pictures of rooms before too long but for now, this is all you get. And because I am in such an overwhelmed state right now, you aren't going to get very much writing. I really should be cleaning or painting or something instead of blogging...

Guestroom with precarious pile of books/games

Office which serves as a part of our kitchen

My beautifully made bed!

Ugh, mess.

Living room and crazy plant lady window

More mess

Our "pantry"

Dining room table


My brink of a stressed out breakdown face
There you have it, my life right now. Now off to do something useful!

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

A Little Blue

The Christmas season is upon us and this is the time of year where my emotions are all over the place. One minute I am happy and excited to get our tree and continue on the traditions we have started the last few years and the next minute all I want to do is curl up in a ball and hide from the world. Here's the thing of it folks, Christmas when dealing with infertility is hard. So so hard. It's a time of the year that is so focused on kids and the joy that they bring you and everyone tells you "just wait until you have kids and this time of the year will be even more magical". :::punch to the gut::: 

We so desperately want a family, to be able to share our traditions with them, to see the wonder of Christmas through a child's eyes. We want all of that and have wanted it for years, and yet, we don't have it. This is our seventh Christmas since we started trying and it stings. Each Christmas that comes and goes is like a giant mark on a giant failure list. It's another reminder that we don't have what we have been aiming for, what we have been working towards for over 6 years. Not having kids is extra hard this time of year.

It also doesn't help that my house is a complete disaster zone. It is messy and dusty and dirty and cluttered and I just can't handle it anymore. Seriously, I can't. I want to run away and hide and not deal with the mess because I honestly don't know where to start with it all. I got through last Christmas thinking how it was just one bad year and next year we would be settled and could fully decorate. Not so. If we are even able to find room for a tree I will be surprised. It's overwhelming me and I am having almost daily meltdowns over it. Renovations are not for the faint of heart and folks, I am feeling very faint hearted lately.

To top it all off, I think that I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder. Winter is hard for me and always has been, but I feel the sadness coming on earlier this year. I do have a lot of triggers right now though, so maybe I should go easy on myself.

Triggers for the melancholy mood:
1) infertility/loss
2) crazy messy house
3) no room for decorations
4) the anniversary of my Dad's death is coming up
5) work is hard right now

Blah. Sorry to not post in forever and then just come on here and spew such sadness. Just keeping it real for you guys. I will try and be back in the not too distant future to share house update pics. And by that I mean share pictures of my cluttered space. Sigh.

How is everyone else doing? How do you feel about the holidays?

Friday, October 28, 2016

Simple Pleasures - October 2016

It has been forever since I shared some photos of things that have been making me smile, so I thought it was high time I did. It's also been forever since I've blogged. Time has just flown by this year and I haven't dedicated as much time as I wanted into blogging.

Our new Osprey day pack that we scored for an awesome price second hand!

My cute hair and cute dress that I wore to work

Out for a walk in the fall rain

Cutie patootie that I got to babysit for a whole day

I like to call this "staff bonding" (we may have too much fun at work)

KITCHEN PROGRESS!!!! Feel lucky because this is a total sneak peek. 
These are just a few highlights from this past month, things that have brought a smile to my face. What has been making you smile lately?

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

16 Goals for 2016 - Progress Report #3

I'm a little late on my progress report, but I figured it would still be good to check in and see how I am doing with my goals. I'm kind of slacking on everything this year and feeling kind of discouraged about my lack of goal accomplishments or even blog posts. Life is just busy and I'm having a hard time juggling all the things I would like to do with all the things I need to do. Can anyone relate?

Here is how I am doing so far with my goals.

1. Run my 4th 5k Done! I did this the beginning of September and hope to soon get a post up about it.
2. Read 35 books I've only read 8 books so far. :(
3. Learn to knit a baby sweater I've had the wool and pattern for months but haven't actually started knitting yet.
4. Renovate main floor of house In progress, all we have left is the kitchen to finish and some other random small things. I think this might actually get crossed off this year!
5. Journal at least 5 times a month I was great the first few months but have totally dropped off this habit.
6. Take a photography class Nothing yet. 
7. Try 12 new recipes I lost count after 2...
8. Start one good habit a month January-flossing, February-drinking more water, March-weekly dates with Dan, April-making the bed, and then I stopped starting new habits.
9. Build a big chicken run We started this but have yet to finish. 
10. Take a weekend getaway with Dan The June one didn't happen, so we need to plan another one.
11. Make a monthly budget I hate budgets.
12. Reach goal weight of 117 lbs TOTALLY COMPLETED!!!! Although I have since gone back down, but I'm still counting it as a success because I got there.
13. Try container/raised bed vegetable gardening I did this and it was sort of a success. This was a rough year for heat and lack of rain, so they weren't awesome. But I did get some veggies out of them.
14. Go to the gym at least 8 times a month So totally haven't stuck with this one. At all.
15. Complete a French exercise book I have finally started the book, so at least it's now in progress.
16. Find a new go to hairstyle I found an awesome new hairstyle that I loved. And then I cut my hair and am back at square one. Oops!

How are my fellow goal setters doing with their yearly goals? Anyone else struggling just like me? Or perhaps you are rocking your goals! Please share!

Friday, September 9, 2016

Donating My Hair

As you may have been able to tell from some recent pictures of me, my hair was looking extremely long. I hadn't cut it in over a year (other than some trims) and it was the longest it had been in a while. Long and beautiful it was.

And yes, I am speaking in the past tense. Yesterday I cut it all off and will be donating it to Pantene Beautiful Lengths!

This is my first time donating my hair and I'm pretty excited about it. It feels way less wasteful than when I just get it cut and throw it away, this time it is actually serving a purpose. Plus, my hair is crazy thick so I feel like I'm donating twice as much.

I had some fun taking some before shots of my hair when it was freshly washed and looking especially nice, excuse my shower background and my casual clothing choice.

I hate how my hair always looks so nice right before I chop it off. Can't I be cutting it on a bad hair day? Nope, never.

My hairdresser was awesome and cooperated with my request of taking step by step photos. I wanted to document this moment well and I knew I wanted to share pictures with you all.

We put it into four little ponytails so that we could keep as much length on my head as possible and because I have crazy thick hair and it is easier to cut when not in one huge chunk. And then she cut!

It's so short! But look at all that hair I'm holding, it will hopefully be super helpful in making wigs. My fabulous hairdresser then worked her magic and I ended up looking pretty great.

I'm totally loving it and it feels so much lighter already. I'm really happy that I did this and am excited to have short hair again.

Has anyone else ever donated their hair? I don't know why I haven't done this before, I definitely want to do it again. Although I may change my mind after I wash it and my real hair returns. I'll keep you posted.

Monday, August 8, 2016

Drumroll Please

It's time to make a super duper exciting announcement on the blog! I've been dying to share this news with you all for a while but we were waiting for the perfect moment. And today that moment has arrived.

We are crazy excited about this next journey and also pretty terrified, but are ready to start down this road and will be sharing our experiences with you all. But we will be doing that on a different blog, one that I have been dreaming about making for a while now. The Canadian Baby is officially up and running and we will be doing all adoption related updates there. So be sure to head on over and follow me or you can also Like our Facebook page, The Canadian Baby, and be kept in the loop as we move forward. Don't worry though, The Canadian Housewife is going nowhere and I hope to continue to share my exciting and mundane moments with you here for quite a while yet.

Now excuse me as I return to my happy dancing and grinning like a fool.

Friday, July 29, 2016

Five Things Friday

It's been a while, I know. I've been a slacker when it comes to posting on my blog and for that I apologize. I honestly just don't feel like I have much to post about or have any motivation to write. I keep hoping my zeal for blogging will come back, but it seems to be taking its sweet time. So in the meantime, I'll just blog when I feel up to it and you'll just have to check in regularly to see if I posted. Or follow me on Facebook for more updates.

1) We went to see Cold Creek County (a country band) at our local free music festival and we had super awesome seats thanks to a generous coworker. We were six rows from the front and got to enjoy an absolutely amazing concert. Oh so much fun!

2) We have a little flower garden in the back yard that seems to have been a place to put specialty flowers. I've enjoyed watching what appears next and so far we have had some interesting lilies and roses. Really pretty and I'm thinking I'll have to improve it next year by pulling out the weeds that take up 90% of the garden.

3) Our three little blueberry plants that we bought a few years back are finally producing enough to enjoy! In past years, I've barely gotten a handful from the whole season but this year have already enjoyed them a few times, even needing a bowl to pick once.

4) I finally got around to hanging our bathroom art, a picture that my niece Eloise drew for us as a wedding gift. It has been in every bathroom in every place we've lived, so I kept on the tradition and added it to our ensuite. It's amazing how much hanging one picture can make a place feel more like home.

5) Dan and I have been getting out geocaching quite a bit lately and have been enjoying racking up our finds. Maybe we'll even pass 300 this year! We spent Sunday afternoon in the Highlands East working on the GeoTour and are up to 62 finds out of 100. Go us!

What has everyone else been up to lately? Tell me your random tidbits of fun!