Today is a better day. I'm still sad and I could probably still start crying at any moment but I'm trying to think of the good things. I got my period today. I know that this joy won't last too long but I was getting a little concerned. After my first D&C, my period showed up exactly 4 weeks later. So I of course assumed my body would cooperate and do the same thing. Well, it didn't. So ever since Thursday I've been worrying that my body won't adjust and would just screw things up more. Well, today it caught up. And I feel horrible. I'm cramping and feel nauseous but at least I'm on the road to recovery. It's rare that I am happy to see my period arrive. Very rare. I think I can think of two other times in my life where I felt relief to see that blood. Once after my first D&C and the second time was the last cycle before we could start trying again. I know that from now on, I will hate it just like the good old days. But for today, I will take joy in this small thing.
The other happy thing is that we got pre-approved last night for a $250,000 mortgage. And I'm pretty sure we have found our dream house. I know I shouldn't put too much of my heart into this house seeing as we may not even get it but still... I WANT IT!!! Here is a picture of how I look.