Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Getting in to see a doctor...

Is more complicated than I thought! So last week I decided that it was time for me to move away from the pregnancy clinic that I've been to for the last two pregnancies and get in to see an OB/GYN. So, I called the ob/gyn's office to see what I needed to do to get an appointment. I needed a referral. Fine, that sounded easy enough. So I called the clinic and asked them to send over a referral. Well, they didn't want to. They told me that the ob/gyn wouldn't be able to see me for months and then he wouldn't even be able to help me. Thanks for the encouragement. After much persuasion, I convinced them to send a referral. Fast forward a week. I called yesterday to make sure the referral had been received. It hadn't. Great. So I called the clinic to find out what had happened. They rudely told me that it had been faxed last Tuesday, like I had asked. They then reminded me again that the ob/gyn wouldn't be able to help me. Bah! I'm kind of glad to be getting away from them.

I still haven't done anything about it yet. I may call the ob/gyn's office tomorrow to check again and then offer to hand deliver it for them. I know that it may take a while to get an appointment but it would go a whole lot faster if the dang referral was sent in the first place! I'm so frustrated with it all.

My plan of action right now is to get in to see this ob/gyn. Hopefully he will be able to help me out a little bit. At least refer me to see a specialist or something. I want to get tests done and see if there are any problems before trying again. If there is a way to prevent another miscarriage, I will take it. The past few days have been really tough. I cry every night and feel like my world is crashing down. It's like I'm drowning in a sea of sadness. I know that I couldn't handle another loss anytime soon (not that it's ever easy) but at the same time I want a baby so badly that having to wait multiple months feels like an eternity. Although at this point, I don't know what would make me happy. I feel so alone in this. Like no one really understands what I'm going through.

1 comment:

  1. Jennie, I think that you feel alone because everyone carries their own burdens in their own way. You are right when you say no one really understands what you are going through. No one ever will because no one lives anything the exact same way. But people can relate, people can listen, and people can try to understand.
    I wish I could understand, wish I could support you through this better.
    I have no answers to your questions, no ointment for your wounds, but I do want you to know that I am thinking of you and that I love you.