Monday, April 18, 2011

No Hope Here

I am feeling so down lately. This past week has been tough and I find everything ticks me off and sends me on a downward spiral. I feel like nothing is going as planned. I am feeling sorry for myself and having a pity party. I know it's dumb and it won't help me feel any better but that is how I feel right now and so that's the way it will be.

I hate my job. Each day makes me dislike it even more. Yes the office is great and the paycheque is nice but I am so incredibley sick of getting up in the morning and coming and sitting at my desk and being bored out of my mind. I want to quit and stay home and make bread and get a dog and have babies. That's all I've ever wanted to do. I wanted to get married and have kids. That's it, pointe final. But that isn't the way it's working. The whole baby thing is getting me down and I feel like I will never have kids. I will just be stuck at the dead end job forever and continue on with life how it is now. I feel like everything is never ending and this depression and sadness is overwhelming. I must be a real treat to be around.

How do I get out of this slump? How do I continue on with life without feeling this constant weight upon me? Help!

2 comments:

  1. I just wanted to let you know that I've been right where you are and it sucks...its awful. I remember feeling those exact same feelings and thinking those exact same thoughts. I seriously could have written it myself. Just know you're not alone and in time it WILL get better. ((((HUGS))))

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  2. I love you so much Jennie and all I want to do is make things better for you.

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