Thursday, April 14, 2011

Screw You School

I'm supposed to be studying tonight for my exam on Friday. It's worth 50% of my mark. :S But I'm in such a bad place emotionally tonight that I'm not even opening my textbook. I feel like crap and I just want to be miserable. I'm jealous. I'm jealous of my friend who gets to have a happy first pregnancy where everything is going fine. I'm jealous that she gets to go shopping for curtains for the nursery. I'm jealous she got to hear her baby's heartbeat. I'm jealous that she is starting to show. I'm jealous that she isn't working and gets to stay home and daydream about her baby. I'm just so incredibly jealous and it is consuming me. I hate that it is. I'm happy for her, don't get me wrong. It's just a happiness that is overpowered with jealousy. Sigh...

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