Tuesday, July 26, 2011

30 Day Blog Challenge - Day 2

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

Hmm... this one is going to be pretty straight forward I think. Our Road to a Baby is to document our road to a baby. All the bumps and potholes and hills and everything. I want to be able to look back on this in the future when I'm holding our little rainbow baby in my arms and see the road that it took to get us to that point. I don't want to forget these feelings that I feel now. So, that is why I named it what I named it. No secret meaning or anything.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

30 Day Blog Challenge - Day 1

I have decided to do this really cool 30 Day Blog Challenge I found on someone's blog. Although it won't be 30 consecutive days. I really don't have enough time to dedicate to doing that. So it will be more like when I think of it. But I thought it could be enjoyable for my followers to read some fun stuff amongst my depressing posts. So here goes.

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts 

My names is Jennie but on this blog I go by Jenn. My husband and I just bought a house this summer and we are loving it here. We recently just got a black lab named Mia.That's all I can think of because like I said in a previous post, my brain is fried due to the heat. 

 This picture is actually from February but I couldn't find a newer one. So it's recent enough. 


Now for 15 interesting facts...
1 - I am the youngest of 5 kids.
2 - My lips are naturally red and I never wear lipstick.
3 - I am 22 and my Dad is 82. He is by far the coolest father ever.
4 - I can hoola hoop very well.
5 - My party trick is walking through a broomstick. I won't even try to explain it. 
6 - We went bowling at our wedding reception.
7 - I hate coconut with a passion.
8 - The couch that I'm sitting on in my picture was my heirloom couch from my parents. Dan made me sell it. :(
9 - I've only ever kissed one guy. My husband.
10 - I am terrified of heights.
11 - I have two middle names.
12 - When I was 5 I wanted to be a pirate.
13 - I got married at 19. 
14 - I was home schooled until grade 9.
15 - I love to cook for my husband.

Jealousy

Jealousy is a horrible thing. It really eats away at you. I hate being jealous of every pregnant person out there. I am happy for them and I don't know their story so I can't judge, but I'm jealous. I'm jealous that they are pregnant and I am not. I should be 32 weeks pregnant tomorrow. I hate that I'm not. I hate that my body can't seem to carry a baby past 8 weeks. Why can't it? I'm jealous of cute little baby bumps. I want one. I want to have my baby growing inside of me and I want to be feeling him/her kick. We should be preparing a nursery and getting ready to welcome a new baby into the world. But we're not. And I'm jealous of everyone else who is.

Why is miscarriage such a taboo subject? You barely ever hear of other people going through a miscarriage or having had one. Until you share that you have. And then women feel like they can open up. But for the most part, we suffer in silence. Miscarriages are very common. You are in a minority if you haven't had one. A lucky minority that is.

I feel like my mind is all over the place tonight. The next thing I would like to say is, I LOVE CHARTING MY CYCLE! It's weird but it makes me feel like I'm in more control and understand what's going on inside of me. I like knowing when my period is arriving and when I'm ovulating. It just makes me feel smart. I love to stare at my chart and see how my temps rise. I know it's dumb and really it can't really tell me much. Well the chart as a whole does but I'm addicted to staring at it on a daily basis. I'm so glad that I got into charting.

Alright. My mind is fried. I'm blaming it on this heat. I feel like my entire body is melting. Yuck!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

An Ode to Oreos

I love Oreos. So much. They are one of the most amazing cookies. You can eat them so many different ways. You can just shove the whole chocolatey creamy cookie in your mouth and enjoy the mixed flavours and textures. Or you can split it in two, lick out the creamy interior and then eat the chocolate cookies separately. Or you can dunk the whole thing in milk or divide, lick and then dunk. Or you can crumble them up on top of ice cream. Or you can buy Oreo ice cream sandwiches. Or make an Oreo cheesecake. Not to mention all the different forms Oreos come in! Oreo cookies, Oreo Cakesters, Oreo Stix, Mint Oreos, Double Stuffed Oreos, Double Chocolate Oreos... So many wonderful ways to eat Oreos! I am feeling the need to purchase some. I have no good chocolate anything at home. I finished my Easter mini eggs and my brownie ice cream. Now all I have is... nothing. That tells me it's just about time to purchase some Oreos!

Here are some pictures of Oreos for your viewing pleasure.

This is me, by the way.



Oreos and Milk



Looks so good!



My new magnets I need to purchase



A nice treat for a cold summer day



Drool!



P.S. Sorry if this post made you go out and buy some Oreos!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Thoughts

Here are my thoughts right now:
  • I love my house
  • I love my newly planted flowers
  • I wish I was 29 weeks pregnant right now
  • Mia is a great distraction
  • Chocolate sounds heavenly
  • I have the best husband around
  • Wouldn't it be nice to quit my job and stay at home all day?
  • I can't wait until my sister and her family come in August!
  • I hope my first loaf of bread in my new bread machine turns out
  • I'm sleepy
  • Life is good
 I've been doing really good these past couple of weeks. Yes, I have my odd moments of sadness but I haven't had any significant meltdowns. Heck, I can't even remember the last time I cried. This is like a new record for me. It's been forever since I have felt this normal. I'm hoping it will continue on although I know that is wishful thinking. I will probably fall into some sort of pit again. But for now I will glory in my happy feelings. Maybe it's because it's summer and the sun shines and our house is great and I'm busy. I don't know, but I am feeling content lately. July has been a content month.

A year ago I was pregnant. A whole year has passed since I was blissfully 6 weeks pregnant with Casey & Jaimie. This time last year I imagined this summer going very differently. I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would have a miscarriage and not have my babies with me. That just wouldn't happen to me. But it did. It happened twice. And now a year has passed and my uterus is still empty. No babies in my arms, not babies in my tummy. It's weird how life is.

Enough crazy ramblings, I could go on all night. Now for some pictures of my new house! (For those of you who have me on facebook, sorry for the duplicates)








Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Something that bugs me

I wanted to write this out because it's been bugging me lately. It really bugs me when I see that people are pregnant with twins. Well, seeing anyone that is pregnant bugs me but it really rubs me the wrong way when I find out its twins. I should have had twins. My first pregnancy was twins and I was going to be part of that special twins mommy group. And now I'm not. My twins died. I just feel so empty. Every pregnancy and every baby is a miracle but twins just seem so special. I get especially jealous of those who are pregnant with twins. Jealous and obsessed. I kind of creepily stalk people when I know there are twins in there. Odd I know. I just kind of wish I didn't feel this way. Bah.

On a happier note, we're moved in! Well, our boxes are there and a lot of them are unpacked. We still have quite a bit of work to do though. Slowly but surely. It's so fabulous. I basically just walk around all day smiling at it. I love owning our own place and being able to decorate it and set it up how I want it and know that it's all ours. I am happy.