Thursday, July 14, 2011

Thoughts

Here are my thoughts right now:
  • I love my house
  • I love my newly planted flowers
  • I wish I was 29 weeks pregnant right now
  • Mia is a great distraction
  • Chocolate sounds heavenly
  • I have the best husband around
  • Wouldn't it be nice to quit my job and stay at home all day?
  • I can't wait until my sister and her family come in August!
  • I hope my first loaf of bread in my new bread machine turns out
  • I'm sleepy
  • Life is good
 I've been doing really good these past couple of weeks. Yes, I have my odd moments of sadness but I haven't had any significant meltdowns. Heck, I can't even remember the last time I cried. This is like a new record for me. It's been forever since I have felt this normal. I'm hoping it will continue on although I know that is wishful thinking. I will probably fall into some sort of pit again. But for now I will glory in my happy feelings. Maybe it's because it's summer and the sun shines and our house is great and I'm busy. I don't know, but I am feeling content lately. July has been a content month.

A year ago I was pregnant. A whole year has passed since I was blissfully 6 weeks pregnant with Casey & Jaimie. This time last year I imagined this summer going very differently. I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would have a miscarriage and not have my babies with me. That just wouldn't happen to me. But it did. It happened twice. And now a year has passed and my uterus is still empty. No babies in my arms, not babies in my tummy. It's weird how life is.

Enough crazy ramblings, I could go on all night. Now for some pictures of my new house! (For those of you who have me on facebook, sorry for the duplicates)








1 comment:

  1. I treasure those good days and weeks too. It's funny knowing that the rug is going to be pulled out from under you at some point. But it definitely keeps me thankful for those good times. And yes,it's definitely funny how life turns out. I just hope eventually we either find peace in the way it's working out or things start going the way we want.

    Love the house by the way! Very cute!

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