Thursday, November 17, 2011
Loss is a terrible thing. I hate that anyone has to go through the pain of losing a baby, no matter how far along you are. Once you see those two pink lines, you love that baby and you dream for that baby. And when you lose it, you must grieve. Another friend of mine just experienced a loss at 11.5 weeks. It's just not fair. She deserved that baby, wanted that baby, loved that baby. Why does this need to happen? It saddens me. I think of all my friends who go through this and my heart breaks for them. I don't want them to be a part of this club of mine. I want everyone to be able to take home a healthy baby. To me, if you experience a loss, you should be able to then have a wonderfully easy healthy pregnancy with a take home baby at the end. I have friends who have had early losses, ectopic pregnancies, stillbirths, everything. And most of these were second or third losses. Why is it that this happens to such good women? I'm not saying I would want it to happen to anyone but I feel like some people deserve to have a baby more than others. These women would make such wonderful mothers and yet, their babies are taken from them. It angers me and saddens me and frustrates me. I want to go and make it all better for my friends. I want to go to their houses and hug them and take away their pain. But I can't.