Friday, November 18, 2011

Weight Gain

I am trying to gain weight. I know that as most people read that sentence they are thinking these thoughts: "I could give you 10 pounds", "I'm jealous you're so skinny", "I wish I had to worry about gaining weight", etc etc. You get the picture. But before you have those thoughts, I need you to realize something. Being skinny isn't always that great. I have always been thin and I'm used to the many comments I get from people about how great it would be as thin as me. But, it's hard. It's hard because when I get sick, I lose weight fast. When I lose weight, I become very underweight, and I struggle to gain it back. Over the course of 2 months I lost 10 pounds and it has taken me 2 months to gain back 3. I am just starting to gain back some of my energy and look a little more human and a little less skeletal. So don't judge me for being skinny. Try and understand that it can be hard and unhealthy.

Now that I've got that out of the way, let's talk about my weight gain. So as I said, I have gained 3 pounds. I'm now up to a glorious 109 pounds. Wow! Pretty soon I'll be at the 110 mark and then I'm sure the weight will just keep coming. Hopefully. I'm trying really hard to eat more and I've even started tracking my calorie intake. In all honesty, I know I don't eat enough. It's hard though. I've always been big no small meals and lots of snacks but my stomach has also shrunk over the summer. So I may have to start small and work my way up to my goal. I've signed up for myfitnesspal.com and so far I'm enjoying it. It's usually for people trying to lose weight but I'm using it in the opposite way. It's working fine so far.

So there's my weight gain progress. I want to make it back to my pre-sickness weight of 116 but ideally I would love to hit the 120 pound mark. Wish me luck! And I'll keep you posted.

1 comment:

  1. I am in the same boat, struggling to gain weight. It's tough because the vast majority of people don't understand at all. I'm currently tracking my food on myfitnesspal and trying to eat 2000 calories a day. Good luck :)

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