Friday, January 6, 2012

A New Year

It's a new year. 2012 is upon us and I don't feel ready for it. I'm usually excited for a new year with all the newness and potential it holds. I get all excited and make goals and think of all the great things that can happen. But this year, not so much. Sure I made some goals and I'm pretty pleased with them but the overall excitement isn't there. I hate that I feel this way but I do. I just keep thinking that we probably won't even get pregnant this year. And it's getting closer and closer to impossible to even have a baby this year. I'm discouraged. Maybe this discouragement also comes from the fact that it's dreary out and there isn't much sunlight. It is that time of the year to get depressed.

Last year at this time I was so excited. Next week marks the anniversary of my last BFP. I can't believe it's almost been a whole year since I saw those two beautiful pink lines. Wow. Time flies and yet drags by all at the same time.

I'm at work and it's almost time for me to head home so I won't share my goals for 2012 yet. I'll try and post them some time this weekend though. That will be a cheerier post.

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