Monday, March 26, 2012

Sickness Update

So I realize I haven't been posting much lately but I just feel like I don't have much to write about. I have the same old complaints and its discouraging. I'm still sick. Nine months of being sick and I'm no closer to be being better than I was last June. I'm having trouble finding the good in life lately and I'm just feeling so down. Being sick is hard. Not only do I feel crappy all the time, but it puts a damper on everything. I don't feel like cleaning my house or cooking or doing yardwork or going out to eat or anything. All I want to do is wear my sweatpants and curl up in front of Gilmore Girls. Which I do on a regular basis. But it's getting to be a big stress in life. It's also starting to wear on Dan and I's relationship. We're both frustrated and we're both getting more snappy and less patient. So there are more fights and more fights is just sad. I'm just ready to move on and be healthy and have my normal life back. I feel like everything wouldn't be so hard if I were feeling better. Having to TTA and watch everyone else have babies wouldn't be as hard if I were feeling better, if I knew that we had a goal in mind, a date that we could start TTC again. But for now, I'm just treading water. I'm not moving anywhere and it's depressing.

So for the update. I called the internist's office this morning just to make sure my idiot doctor had actually sent the referral like I asked. She did. But the doctor has just returned from vacation today and has some catching up to do. He will take a look at my referral this week and let the receptionist know what tests I need to get done and then a "package" will be sent to me this week (hopefully). So maybe by next week I will have more of an idea of what's going on? But hey, at least I'm taking a step in the right direction. The referral was sent and they're working on it. Now I just have to wait patiently to find out what my next step is.

1 comment:

  1. Dearest darling Jennifer.
    You are indeed taking a step in the right direction. Keep your head above water and remind yourself about the good that is still in your life: Dan, or your awesome house, or springtime, or friends, or the comfort of a couch, or the access to healthcare (even if it is slow, or your family.
    I love you.