In regards to my health that is. Almost a year and a half of being sick and seeing multiple doctors and I am no closer to having an answer. This just plain sucks.
For those of you who don't know, I got what seemed to be a flu back in June 2011. It involved nausea, diarrhea and one bout of vomiting. I felt crappy for a week but then seemed to be improving. I didn't feel good but was feeling a bit better and hoped to be back to my normal self soon. At the end of July 2011, it returned. And this time it didn't leave. I was nauseated, had shooting pains on my right side, had bad diarrhea and just overall felt horrible. I went to see my family doctor and she told me it would pass. It didn't. I lost 10 pounds over two months putting me down to 106 lbs (I'm 5'7") and I completely lost all motivation to do anything. I felt horrible and I spent most of my time curled up at home with Dan and a movie. At least I was close to a bathroom that way. Since that summer, I have been fighting this "sickness". It has gotten a bit better over time but I still don't feel good. These past few months have been the best ones I've had in a while. And for that I am thankful.
I got depressed and lost my joy in life. I didn't want to go anywhere, see anyone or eat anything. I cried a lot. I was mad at everything. I was mad at my body for failing me and making me feel so horrible. I was mad at all the doctors I have seen for not being able to help me. I was mad at the fact that we had to stop trying to get pregnant because I was sick. I was mad that everyone else was going on with their lives while it felt like mine had come to a dead stop. I was mad that my husband couldn't take me out on a date. I was just mad.
I have tried so many things. I've had multiple rounds of bloodwork done, I've had two abdominal ultrasounds, I've had both a colonoscopy and an endoscopy, I've had a CT scan and urine samples done. I've seen my family doctor, a gastroenterologist, an internist, a naturopath, a counsellor and a pharmacist. And yet still, after all this time, no one really knows what's going on inside of me. It's frustrating.
Our latest attempt to get answers led us to a clinic in Ottawa. And this is where we are at. I am on multiple supplements including a probiotic, magnesium, digestion enzymes and something called tyro-trypt that is supposed to help my mood. I am adding hemp protein powder to my smoothies in the morning and cutting back on carbs and sugars. I am focusing mainly on eating meat, veggies, fruits and whole grains. I am also going gluten-free on top of being dairy-free. My diet is in the process of a major overhaul and I am trying to adjust.
Please join me as I embark on this next leg of my journey towards health. I will be blogging about the adventures of gluten-free cooking, cutting out processed foods, battling my sugar/chocolate cravings and learning a new way of eating. I will also continue to blog about my DIY projects, crafting, gardening, farming, room makeovers and all those other fun things you have come to love and expect.
Thanks to my wonderful husband for sticking by my side and encouraging me to fight back, I have been doing better. I had a good summer and I am learning to enjoy each day that I have. To take pleasure in the good days and know that the bad days will pass. To embrace life and take pleasure in small things. This blog has helped me so much these past few months, to get out of my slump and write about my life. Because my life is good.