As I wrote the title to this post, I found it hard to write "Plan A", because in all honesty, this is far from Plan A. If that were truly the case, we would have 3 year old twins running around. Heck, it's not even really Plan B. But in regards to this new path we are heading down, with the specialist in Toronto, this is Plan A.
I shared with you in my vampire appointment post about the first round of testing we were thrown into, including almost passing out and getting rear-ended on the 401. Next up was an SHG and more bloodwork, which I told you about in this post. We finally had our follow up appointment to all this testing yesterday. It was supposed to be last week, on March 24th, but after a bunch of time changes for that day, it finally got moved to the 31st. Let me tell you, this past week dragged by.
But Monday finally arrived and with it, a whole bundle of nerves. I slept horribly Sunday night, woke up feeling sick and felt stressed and nervous all morning. We arrived early to this appointment, since we were late last time, and had to kill some time in the building lobby before going up. I found this awesome rope mural thing. Not quite sure what it's purpose was but I thought it was cool.
Although it did make me a little dizzy staring at it.
By the time we were finally called back to a room, I had worked myself into a state of panic. Fortunately, it was all for naught. According to everything they tested for, I'm normal. Or as they put it, boring. Which is a good thing. While I was kind of hoping something would show up that we could point to as the cause of our losses, the chances of something showing up that was not fixable were a little too high for comfort. So being told that everything came back normal was comforting.
After we were told about our results, we then moved on to the plan of attack. While they knew we had tried progesterone and baby aspirin for our last pregnancy with no success, they felt it was worth trying again. But this time, I will start taking them both before I am actually pregnant.
This means that on day one of my cycle, I will start taking the baby aspirin and then after ovulation I will start the progesterone. When my period is due to arrive, I will go in for a blood draw to see if I am pregnant. If I am, I will continue the progesterone and baby aspirin until the end of the 10th week but if I am not, I will stop the progesterone and wait for my period to arrive. Once it does, we will repeat this protocol.
The hope is that we will get pregnant and stay pregnant. But since I am realistic and not overly optimistic, it was comforting for me to know that they had a plan for if this doesn't happen. We will try the progesterone/baby aspirin combo for 5 months and if we aren't pregnant within this time frame, we will regroup and figure out what our next steps should be. If we do get pregnant and then have another loss, they will perform the D&C in Toronto so that they can be sure to do testing on the baby to see if they can find any genetic defects. They will then do more testing on me to see if they can find something that may have been missed up to this point.
So there you have it, our plan of attack. I am now armed with 8 weeks worth of progesterone (which isn't cheap by the way!), instructions/requisitions, baby aspirin and a new BBT (Basal Body Thermometer).
Here's to hoping Plan A works!
We are choosing to be open about this part of our journey because we need the support and love from our friends and family as we move forward. I also want to help raise awareness of infertility and pregnancy loss, helping make it less of a taboo subject. If you are struggling with infertility or have experienced multiple losses like myself, please know you are not alone. This is a hard road to walk down but there are others who can come along you and support you.
Having said that, it is NEVER appropriate to ask anyone (not just myself) about the status of a women's uterus. Do not ask if we are pregnant. We will choose who we will tell and when we will tell them if we are so blessed with another pregnancy. We appreciate your thoughts and prayers but will not be answering questions in regards to whether or not there is a baby growing inside of me. If you ask, be prepared for a snarky answer. Thank you!