Saturday, December 31, 2016

16 Goals for 2016 - Progress Report #4

It's the last day of 2016 so I am sharing how I did on my goals this past year. Not so great really, but I guess some years are like that.

1. Run my 4th 5k Done!
2. Read 35 books I only read 12 books, how sad.
3. Learn to knit a baby sweater Done! I just need to add buttons to it and it is ready for a baby.
4. Renovate main floor of house While there are still a few last minute things to finish off, the big messy part of renovating the main floor is done so I am crossing this baby off!
5. Journal at least 5 times a month This goal only lasted a few months...
6. Take a photography class Nope
7. Try 12 new recipes Done!
8. Start one good habit a month I started good habits the first 4 months of the year and then quit. Oops.
9. Build a big chicken run It still needs the mesh roof but I'm calling it done.
10. Take a weekend getaway with Dan Didn't happen, although we did go camping together a few times.
11. Make a monthly budget Total epic fail.
12. Reach goal weight of 117 lbs TOTALLY COMPLETED!!!! Although I have since gone back down, but I'm still counting it as a success because I got there.
13. Try container/raised bed vegetable gardening I did this but it only sort of worked, due to the super hot dry summer we had.
14. Go to the gym at least 8 times a month Another epic fail.
15. Complete a French exercise book I started the book but never finished it.
16. Find a new go to hairstyle I found an awesome new hairstyle that I loved. And then I cut my hair and am back at square one. Oops!

I completed 8 out of 16 goals, so 50%. How about you? How did you do on your goals?

Thursday, December 1, 2016

My House is in Shambles

For those of you who have been asking for some updated pics of our house, here you go. Basically, this just shows everything a mess because that is what it looks like. I'll hopefully be able to take nice finished pictures of rooms before too long but for now, this is all you get. And because I am in such an overwhelmed state right now, you aren't going to get very much writing. I really should be cleaning or painting or something instead of blogging...

Guestroom with precarious pile of books/games

Office which serves as a part of our kitchen

My beautifully made bed!

Ugh, mess.

Living room and crazy plant lady window

More mess

Our "pantry"

Dining room table


My brink of a stressed out breakdown face
There you have it, my life right now. Now off to do something useful!

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

A Little Blue

The Christmas season is upon us and this is the time of year where my emotions are all over the place. One minute I am happy and excited to get our tree and continue on the traditions we have started the last few years and the next minute all I want to do is curl up in a ball and hide from the world. Here's the thing of it folks, Christmas when dealing with infertility is hard. So so hard. It's a time of the year that is so focused on kids and the joy that they bring you and everyone tells you "just wait until you have kids and this time of the year will be even more magical". :::punch to the gut::: 

We so desperately want a family, to be able to share our traditions with them, to see the wonder of Christmas through a child's eyes. We want all of that and have wanted it for years, and yet, we don't have it. This is our seventh Christmas since we started trying and it stings. Each Christmas that comes and goes is like a giant mark on a giant failure list. It's another reminder that we don't have what we have been aiming for, what we have been working towards for over 6 years. Not having kids is extra hard this time of year.

It also doesn't help that my house is a complete disaster zone. It is messy and dusty and dirty and cluttered and I just can't handle it anymore. Seriously, I can't. I want to run away and hide and not deal with the mess because I honestly don't know where to start with it all. I got through last Christmas thinking how it was just one bad year and next year we would be settled and could fully decorate. Not so. If we are even able to find room for a tree I will be surprised. It's overwhelming me and I am having almost daily meltdowns over it. Renovations are not for the faint of heart and folks, I am feeling very faint hearted lately.

To top it all off, I think that I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder. Winter is hard for me and always has been, but I feel the sadness coming on earlier this year. I do have a lot of triggers right now though, so maybe I should go easy on myself.

Triggers for the melancholy mood:
1) infertility/loss
2) crazy messy house
3) no room for decorations
4) the anniversary of my Dad's death is coming up
5) work is hard right now

Blah. Sorry to not post in forever and then just come on here and spew such sadness. Just keeping it real for you guys. I will try and be back in the not too distant future to share house update pics. And by that I mean share pictures of my cluttered space. Sigh.

How is everyone else doing? How do you feel about the holidays?

Friday, October 28, 2016

Simple Pleasures - October 2016

It has been forever since I shared some photos of things that have been making me smile, so I thought it was high time I did. It's also been forever since I've blogged. Time has just flown by this year and I haven't dedicated as much time as I wanted into blogging.

Our new Osprey day pack that we scored for an awesome price second hand!

My cute hair and cute dress that I wore to work

Out for a walk in the fall rain

Cutie patootie that I got to babysit for a whole day

I like to call this "staff bonding" (we may have too much fun at work)

KITCHEN PROGRESS!!!! Feel lucky because this is a total sneak peek. 
These are just a few highlights from this past month, things that have brought a smile to my face. What has been making you smile lately?

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

16 Goals for 2016 - Progress Report #3

I'm a little late on my progress report, but I figured it would still be good to check in and see how I am doing with my goals. I'm kind of slacking on everything this year and feeling kind of discouraged about my lack of goal accomplishments or even blog posts. Life is just busy and I'm having a hard time juggling all the things I would like to do with all the things I need to do. Can anyone relate?

Here is how I am doing so far with my goals.

1. Run my 4th 5k Done! I did this the beginning of September and hope to soon get a post up about it.
2. Read 35 books I've only read 8 books so far. :(
3. Learn to knit a baby sweater I've had the wool and pattern for months but haven't actually started knitting yet.
4. Renovate main floor of house In progress, all we have left is the kitchen to finish and some other random small things. I think this might actually get crossed off this year!
5. Journal at least 5 times a month I was great the first few months but have totally dropped off this habit.
6. Take a photography class Nothing yet. 
7. Try 12 new recipes I lost count after 2...
8. Start one good habit a month January-flossing, February-drinking more water, March-weekly dates with Dan, April-making the bed, and then I stopped starting new habits.
9. Build a big chicken run We started this but have yet to finish. 
10. Take a weekend getaway with Dan The June one didn't happen, so we need to plan another one.
11. Make a monthly budget I hate budgets.
12. Reach goal weight of 117 lbs TOTALLY COMPLETED!!!! Although I have since gone back down, but I'm still counting it as a success because I got there.
13. Try container/raised bed vegetable gardening I did this and it was sort of a success. This was a rough year for heat and lack of rain, so they weren't awesome. But I did get some veggies out of them.
14. Go to the gym at least 8 times a month So totally haven't stuck with this one. At all.
15. Complete a French exercise book I have finally started the book, so at least it's now in progress.
16. Find a new go to hairstyle I found an awesome new hairstyle that I loved. And then I cut my hair and am back at square one. Oops!

How are my fellow goal setters doing with their yearly goals? Anyone else struggling just like me? Or perhaps you are rocking your goals! Please share!

Friday, September 9, 2016

Donating My Hair

As you may have been able to tell from some recent pictures of me, my hair was looking extremely long. I hadn't cut it in over a year (other than some trims) and it was the longest it had been in a while. Long and beautiful it was.

And yes, I am speaking in the past tense. Yesterday I cut it all off and will be donating it to Pantene Beautiful Lengths!

This is my first time donating my hair and I'm pretty excited about it. It feels way less wasteful than when I just get it cut and throw it away, this time it is actually serving a purpose. Plus, my hair is crazy thick so I feel like I'm donating twice as much.

I had some fun taking some before shots of my hair when it was freshly washed and looking especially nice, excuse my shower background and my casual clothing choice.

I hate how my hair always looks so nice right before I chop it off. Can't I be cutting it on a bad hair day? Nope, never.

My hairdresser was awesome and cooperated with my request of taking step by step photos. I wanted to document this moment well and I knew I wanted to share pictures with you all.

We put it into four little ponytails so that we could keep as much length on my head as possible and because I have crazy thick hair and it is easier to cut when not in one huge chunk. And then she cut!

It's so short! But look at all that hair I'm holding, it will hopefully be super helpful in making wigs. My fabulous hairdresser then worked her magic and I ended up looking pretty great.

I'm totally loving it and it feels so much lighter already. I'm really happy that I did this and am excited to have short hair again.

Has anyone else ever donated their hair? I don't know why I haven't done this before, I definitely want to do it again. Although I may change my mind after I wash it and my real hair returns. I'll keep you posted.

Monday, August 8, 2016

Drumroll Please

It's time to make a super duper exciting announcement on the blog! I've been dying to share this news with you all for a while but we were waiting for the perfect moment. And today that moment has arrived.

We are crazy excited about this next journey and also pretty terrified, but are ready to start down this road and will be sharing our experiences with you all. But we will be doing that on a different blog, one that I have been dreaming about making for a while now. The Canadian Baby is officially up and running and we will be doing all adoption related updates there. So be sure to head on over and follow me or you can also Like our Facebook page, The Canadian Baby, and be kept in the loop as we move forward. Don't worry though, The Canadian Housewife is going nowhere and I hope to continue to share my exciting and mundane moments with you here for quite a while yet.

Now excuse me as I return to my happy dancing and grinning like a fool.

Friday, July 29, 2016

Five Things Friday

It's been a while, I know. I've been a slacker when it comes to posting on my blog and for that I apologize. I honestly just don't feel like I have much to post about or have any motivation to write. I keep hoping my zeal for blogging will come back, but it seems to be taking its sweet time. So in the meantime, I'll just blog when I feel up to it and you'll just have to check in regularly to see if I posted. Or follow me on Facebook for more updates.

1) We went to see Cold Creek County (a country band) at our local free music festival and we had super awesome seats thanks to a generous coworker. We were six rows from the front and got to enjoy an absolutely amazing concert. Oh so much fun!

2) We have a little flower garden in the back yard that seems to have been a place to put specialty flowers. I've enjoyed watching what appears next and so far we have had some interesting lilies and roses. Really pretty and I'm thinking I'll have to improve it next year by pulling out the weeds that take up 90% of the garden.

3) Our three little blueberry plants that we bought a few years back are finally producing enough to enjoy! In past years, I've barely gotten a handful from the whole season but this year have already enjoyed them a few times, even needing a bowl to pick once.

4) I finally got around to hanging our bathroom art, a picture that my niece Eloise drew for us as a wedding gift. It has been in every bathroom in every place we've lived, so I kept on the tradition and added it to our ensuite. It's amazing how much hanging one picture can make a place feel more like home.

5) Dan and I have been getting out geocaching quite a bit lately and have been enjoying racking up our finds. Maybe we'll even pass 300 this year! We spent Sunday afternoon in the Highlands East working on the GeoTour and are up to 62 finds out of 100. Go us!

What has everyone else been up to lately? Tell me your random tidbits of fun!

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Mini Camping Trip 2016

We started off our camping season this year with an impromptu one night camping trip two weekends ago. Dan had been suggesting it for a while but we really didn't decide to actually do it until the day before, so our prep work was a little rushed. But we managed and it ended up being a really nice time.

We headed out in the morning on the Friday and stopped by the Petroglyphs Provincial Park for a quick look around. We didn't stay long though because we had Mia with us and dogs weren't allowed in most of the interesting areas. We arrived at our launch point on Eel's Creek and had a picnic lunch by the river before heading out. While Dan and I ate, Mia lounged in the water. Literally.

Can you spot Mia in the water?
Once we finished our sandwiches, we strapped on our backpacks and made the short hike to the river put in.

Can I just say, Mia in her little backpack is the cutest thing ever. It totally makes me smile the whole time I follow along behind her and Dan.

We paddled up the river for quite a while, getting past the more used areas and making our way to the quieter crown land up past the falls. There were a few portages but nothing too long and it was made easier by our awesome gear and our capability of doing a portage in one trip. Having our little pack mule along helps.

Mia was awesome on the trip and didn't whine too much. She mostly just lay in the canoe watching the world go by.

We chose a lovely little spot to camp for the night and got our tent set up. Once we were settled in, we spent some time fishing and reading (I'll let you guess who did what).

It was so peaceful and quiet at our site, with no one around. We spent the evening relaxing, geocaching, eating supper and staying warm by the fire, with a nice little game of Monopoly Deal before turning in for the night. So nice.

In the morning we ate our breakfast and then slowly started packing up our site. We wanted to get heading home earlier in the day before the heat hit us and we also had evening plans. But the main goal for leaving early was to enjoy the calm still water and to get a bunch of geocaching done. We took our sweet time heading back down the river to our car and really enjoyed the time out in nature together. It was the perfect intro to camping for the year and got us excited for our next trip in August.

I would have taken more pictures but Dan's phone died overnight, so that's all you get. But I will leave you with one last bonus picture of Mia wearing sunglasses. What a good sport she was.

Anyone else getting any camping in this summer? And if so, do you do car camping or back country camping?

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

I'm Too Young To Be This Old

Yup, you read that right. I'm feeling old despite being relatively young. I'm in my 20's, I shouldn't be so easily winded while walking up a hill or unable to paddle a canoe up a river without having aching arms for days. Our canoe trip last weekend was the kick in the butt I needed to get moving again. It is long past time, but better late than never. Right?

So here is the plan, for now at least. I want to move in some way every day and I have made up a workout schedule for the next two weeks. I want to run 3x a week, strength train 2x a week and then walk/bike/yoga 2x a week. I've even written this all out on a calendar and pulled out my stickers. For some odd reason, I love giving myself a sticker when I accomplish something.

I started on Monday by going to the gym and doing some cardio and strength. I felt good doing it and accomplished afterwards. Plus, I looked pretty cute thanks to some adorable work out clothes I have. I admit, looking cute while working out is a good motivator.

Yesterday I went for a run (which admittedly, was mostly walking) and have officially started the Couch to 5k program! This is probably the 6th or 7th time I have started this program and have yet to ever complete it. Maybe this is the year?

Today I plan to hit up the gym again and do some strength training. I'm starting out pretty slow and not pushing myself too hard, since I want this to be a lasting thing and not kill myself the first week. Although I may feel differently come Sunday...

I even signed up for a 5k run in September, which means I will be able to cross another goal off my goal list! Go me! I will be running with my friend Vicky, the same one who I ran in the colour run with last fall, although she will be continuing on and doing a 10k, because she is totally awesome like that. Maybe next year I will be able to join her for a 10k.

So that's the plan for me, to get moving and put my body to good use. No more lazing about all the time and wasting away before I turn 30.

Anyone else want to join me? Let's keep our bodies moving!

Thursday, June 30, 2016

16 Goals for 2016 - Progress Report #2

Wow, the end of June already. It never ceases to amaze me how fast the year flies by. I'm really not doing well with my goals this year, which is discouraging, but I'm trying not to get too down from it. I'm doing my best and that's all that matters. Here is the recap for the first 6 months of 2016.

1. Run my 4th 5k Still not going well. At this rate, this will totally not be happening.
2. Read 35 books I'm super slacking on this one, by like 30 books or so. Dang.
3. Learn to knit a baby sweater I have the wool but need to actually start it!
4. Renovate main floor of house In progress, the kitchen is currently being done.
5. Journal at least 5 times a month I was great the first few months but haven't been doing so well lately.
6. Take a photography class
7. Try 12 new recipes I lost count after 2...
8. Start one good habit a month January-flossing, February-drinking more water, March-weekly dates with Dan, April-making the bed, and then I stopped starting new habits.
9. Build a big chicken run We really need to get started on this!
10. Take a weekend getaway with Dan The June one didn't happen, so we need to plan another one.
11. Make a monthly budget I hate budgets.
12. Reach goal weight of 117 lbs TOTALLY COMPLETED!!!! Although I have since gone back down, but I'm still counting it as a success because I got there.
13. Try container/raised bed vegetable gardening I have 5 containers going right now with zucchini, cucumber and tomatoes.
14. Go to the gym at least 8 times a month Succeeded in January and then stopped mid February due to chest pains. Since February, I have gone twice. I suck.
15. Complete a French exercise book I have finally started the book, so at least it's now in progress.
16. Find a new go to hairstyle I have totally found a new hairstyle I like and am using quite frequently. You can see how cute I am in it in the picture below.

Still only one thing completed. Sigh, I don't think this is going to be my year for goals. I made too many that depended on being awesome every month, which is too hard. Next year, smaller more attainable goals is the goal.

How is everyone else doing?

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Father's Day

Today is a day of so many feelings. Feelings of sadness mostly, as I try to keep my chin up and make the most of today. But in all honestly, I find today a little soul crushing.

Today is the day to celebrate fathers and everywhere you look, there appears to be a happy little family out and about with a proud father in the midst. Not us though. Never us.

We don't have any kids to look up at Dan and think he's the best dad in the world. No one to think he is the strongest or bravest or funnest man who ever walked this earth. No one to jump into his arms and give him a big hug and say "Happy Father's Day Daddy".

What we get instead is a sinking feeling as we lie in bed listening to the birds sing and feel the sun stream in. A cloud hanging over us as we get up, get our breakfast and eat in silence. A feeling of jealousy and sadness all mixed into one as we peruse through Facebook and are inundated with Father's Day posts.

We want what everyone else seems to have. We want it so much.

Today is extra hard for me too, because I don't have my Dad here to celebrate with anymore. Even though this will be the third Father's Day since he died, it is hitting me the hardest. I just have a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes as I try my best to get through today.

I miss him a lot. I miss his smile and his humour and his hugs. I miss hearing his voice, telling me he loves me and is proud of me. I miss being able to call him today and tell him he is the best Dad in the whole wide world. I just miss him so much.

Maybe I should stop trying so hard and just succumb to the sadness and curl up in bed and cry. Because today is hard and that is okay. Hard days happen to the best of us.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Kitchen Destruction Begins

I apologize for not getting a post up last week showing pictures of how our house is currently looking, all semi finished and beautiful. But you see, life happened and pictures didn't get taken. And then, then disaster happened and pretty house pictures will have to wait. By disaster, I don't actually mean anything too bad, just that we started our kitchen reno and that was the end of my house looking half put together.

We finally decided to start our kitchen, which meant we needed to begin by taking up the old floors. In case you can't remember what they looked like, here is a nice before picture of our empty dining room, right before we tore everything to bits.

The flooring itself wasn't that bad and we probably would have left it if the previous owners had installed in properly. But alas, no such luck. There were bumps and dips and it was already starting to peel up in some places. So up it came.

There were four layers of flooring total, with two different underlays used. It was quite the job getting it all up, especially when we ran into mold between two of the layers. It turns out that the dishwasher has been leaking but no one knew because there were so many dang layers of floor to hide the puddle! Fortunately, once we got the moldy flooring up, the sub floor was in pretty good condition.

We pulled all the flooring up in the dining room in one afternoon, although it felt like a lifetime with the heat and humidity we were having. We don't have our air conditioner hooked up yet so we were working in a very hot house. The next afternoon, still in the heat, we tackled the staples/nails/screws in the dining room. It was dreadful.

Seriously, it took forever. I guess that's what 40 years and 4 layers of flooring gets you.

Our next step was pulling up the flooring around the cabinets in the kitchen, so as to leave us a working kitchen for as long as possible. We didn't see the need to lose our counters and sink before we needed to.

We lived with these sub floors for almost a week, until Dan went a little crazy yesterday. He had the day off work so while I was working, he tackled the lower cabinets and the rest of the flooring.

These are the pictures he sent to me around lunch time yesterday.

Craziness! Good bye old kitchen and hello renovation mess! Again.

I arrived home to a living room full of kitchen stuff and Dan starting to lay the new flooring.

I, being the wonderful wife that I am, immediately changed into my work clothes and got to work helping with the flooring. By 7:30pm, we had the new floor in and our kitchen back to working order. Minus any counters though.

It feels so nice to have all the same floor everywhere and not have any weird seams or crevices for dirt to get stuck in. And everything feels so open without any lower cupboards. Having no countertops to work on is going to take some getting used to, but luckily for me I am married to a plumber and I have a little dishes station all set up.

Isn't it cute? He installed the sink and I worked out my mini countertop for the dish rack. It's a little precarious, but it works. I have running water in the kitchen and a working stove and fridge. What more can I ask for?

So that is what our current state of renovations looks like. Our next step will be tearing out the upper cabinets and then cutting out the backsplash. Once that's done, we need to repair the walls and paint before moving in our new cabinets and getting counters measured and ordered. So many steps yet, but we are on our way!