So you know how I promised you lots of renovation posts and talked about how exciting my blog was going to get once we moved? I lied. Turns out I'm not that good at blogging about renovations because I'm too busy sitting in the middle of them feeling sorry for myself. Seriously, I don't handle a messy/dirty house well. Especially when said house doesn't feel like home because nothing is unpacked because of all the renovations. Basically, I'm a bit of a grump lately.
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| Mess mess everywhere |
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| Our only functioning bathroom |
Like I said, my house is a mess and there is dirt and dust everywhere
and there are a ton of cold drafts coming from all corners of the house
and my mood is down in the dumps and real life just isn't fun
sometimes. Our computer is beside a huge draft and so it is super cold
to sit and type anything, hence the lack of blog posts. I also need to
figure out how to get all the pictures off my phone and onto the
computer so that I can actually share updates with you guys. <--- But it's too cold to sit at the computer for long.
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| Sad stockings |
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| Christmas Eve dinner |
And
if I'm being totally honest, I'm having a bit of a rough go of it
emotionally. Everyday I feel like there is a dark cloud hanging over my
head and I just feel sad and discouraged. This doesn't have much to do
with house renovations and has a whole lot to do with me trying to deal
with my infertility and choice to stop trying. I'm having a really hard
time coming to terms with the fact that I will never be pregnant and get
to experience all that comes with that. My heart hurts and it is
affecting my day to day life. I'm questioning a lot of things and just
dealing with a whole whack of emotions, which takes up a lot of energy.
So please be patient with me as I blog sporadically. I
do plan on trying to get some bathroom and hen house update posts
written soon and can hopefully share some house progress with you before
the end of the month. I will also possibly be sharing more posts on my
feelings and how incredibly hard it is to walk this road of infertility.
All that to say, I have not really disappeared, I'm just trying to deal
with this thing called life.
Yay for a blog post! But sorry to hear you are feeling sad and discouraged lately. I can relate to a messy half-unpacked house and it can be stressful. Hwaiting!
ReplyDeleteThanks for understanding sister. Pressing on!
ReplyDeleteThe emotional challenge plus renovations at the same time are a big challenge! Life is not fair sometimes, and it's hard to get beyond it. I expect it's a bit like the grief we feel after our oldest sun died. Death is so permanent! And we have to live with it forever. Hope you can find your own way forward.
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