Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Real Life

So you know how I promised you lots of renovation posts and talked about how exciting my blog was going to get once we moved? I lied. Turns out I'm not that good at blogging about renovations because I'm too busy sitting in the middle of them feeling sorry for myself. Seriously, I don't handle a messy/dirty house well. Especially when said house doesn't feel like home because nothing is unpacked because of all the renovations. Basically, I'm a bit of a grump lately.

Mess mess everywhere

Our only functioning bathroom
Like I said, my house is a mess and there is dirt and dust everywhere and there are a ton of cold drafts coming from all corners of the house and my mood is down in the dumps and real life just isn't fun sometimes. Our computer is beside a huge draft and so it is super cold to sit and type anything, hence the lack of blog posts. I also need to figure out how to get all the pictures off my phone and onto the computer so that I can actually share updates with you guys. <--- But it's too cold to sit at the computer for long.

Sad stockings

Christmas Eve dinner
 And if I'm being totally honest, I'm having a bit of a rough go of it emotionally. Everyday I feel like there is a dark cloud hanging over my head and I just feel sad and discouraged. This doesn't have much to do with house renovations and has a whole lot to do with me trying to deal with my infertility and choice to stop trying. I'm having a really hard time coming to terms with the fact that I will never be pregnant and get to experience all that comes with that. My heart hurts and it is affecting my day to day life. I'm questioning a lot of things and just dealing with a whole whack of emotions, which takes up a lot of energy. 

So please be patient with me as I blog sporadically. I do plan on trying to get some bathroom and hen house update posts written soon and can hopefully share some house progress with you before the end of the month. I will also possibly be sharing more posts on my feelings and how incredibly hard it is to walk this road of infertility. All that to say, I have not really disappeared, I'm just trying to deal with this thing called life.


  1. Yay for a blog post! But sorry to hear you are feeling sad and discouraged lately. I can relate to a messy half-unpacked house and it can be stressful. Hwaiting!

  2. Thanks for understanding sister. Pressing on!

  3. The emotional challenge plus renovations at the same time are a big challenge! Life is not fair sometimes, and it's hard to get beyond it. I expect it's a bit like the grief we feel after our oldest sun died. Death is so permanent! And we have to live with it forever. Hope you can find your own way forward.