Monday, March 14, 2016


Today is March 14th, a day that will always be engraved into my memory as the day that our twins should be celebrating their birthday. I'm fully aware that if we had carried those babies to term, they would have been born before their official due date of March 14th. But since we lost them at 8 weeks, I will still always feel like today would have been their birthday.

Today they would have been turning five, which seems so old. I can't really imagine myself having five year olds. I wonder what they would have been like, what their little personalities would have been. I wonder if they would have been boys or girls or one of each. I wonder who they would have looked like, more me or Dan or a nice mix of both. I wonder so much these days.

Today it is raining and grey out, which matches my mood. I'm not depressed and hiding out in bed crying but I'm also not super cheery and motivated to do much. I'm kind of in between, in a melancholic sort of state. Just thinking and remembering and hurting a little. I have a few things that need to get done today (hello house renovations) but after that I think I might just sit and knit for a bit. Just be.

Today I think of my sweet first babies, Casey and Jaimie, and think back to when I innocently thought they would be coming home with us in March five years ago. I love you to the moon and back and always always will.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Five Things Friday

I'm really sorry for my lack of project specific posts lately, it's just hard when there are so many things going on at once and I slack off on photographing things. Sorry folks.

But lucky for you, I can get my act together enough to pull a few pictures from the past few weeks and come up with this fun post for you. Aren't I just so great? ;)

1. I spent four hours colouring the other day and ended up with a beautiful finished project and a crick in my neck. But seriously, it turned out awesome so it was definitely worth it. Thanks to my sister Jackie for giving me this fun colouring calendar!

2. My brother-in-law Eric came 2 weeks ago to help with house renovations and he brought along the nephew and nieces. Despite a tooth abscess for Jacob and daily trips to the hospital/doctors office, we had a fun time. I sure do love those kids.

3. I should not be allowed to eat Rice Krispies while sitting on the couch. This has seriously happened more times than I care to admit, although I blame it on the heavy spoon in the light plastic bowl. And yes, I eat them dry because I'm cool like that I can't eat any milk.

4. Taking a selfie with a dog is super hard, especially when said dog is Mia. She does not cooperate easily and I finally gave up after three tries. At least I look cute. And take note that we are outside and I'm only wearing a sweater! We are having such mild weather this week and I am totally taking advantage of it.

5. Our shower is almost done! It is looking so beautiful and I love going into the ensuite and just staring at it. Unfortunately we won't be able to use it for at least another month since the glass hasn't been measured or ordered yet and it will then take forever to come in. Sigh. I guess the grungy basement shower will have to do for now.

What random things would you like to share with me today? I always love it when you guys participate in my Friday posts.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

House Tour 2016

Here it is, the moment you have all been waiting for! I shot it all in one video this year so it's a little long and a little shaky and shows a lot of mess. But hey, that's real life for you.

I hope to be getting a house layout for you guys shortly, to help make a little more sense of where things are placed, but for now you get the idea. Hope you enjoyed it!