Thursday, June 30, 2016

16 Goals for 2016 - Progress Report #2

Wow, the end of June already. It never ceases to amaze me how fast the year flies by. I'm really not doing well with my goals this year, which is discouraging, but I'm trying not to get too down from it. I'm doing my best and that's all that matters. Here is the recap for the first 6 months of 2016.

1. Run my 4th 5k Still not going well. At this rate, this will totally not be happening.
2. Read 35 books I'm super slacking on this one, by like 30 books or so. Dang.
3. Learn to knit a baby sweater I have the wool but need to actually start it!
4. Renovate main floor of house In progress, the kitchen is currently being done.
5. Journal at least 5 times a month I was great the first few months but haven't been doing so well lately.
6. Take a photography class
7. Try 12 new recipes I lost count after 2...
8. Start one good habit a month January-flossing, February-drinking more water, March-weekly dates with Dan, April-making the bed, and then I stopped starting new habits.
9. Build a big chicken run We really need to get started on this!
10. Take a weekend getaway with Dan The June one didn't happen, so we need to plan another one.
11. Make a monthly budget I hate budgets.
12. Reach goal weight of 117 lbs TOTALLY COMPLETED!!!! Although I have since gone back down, but I'm still counting it as a success because I got there.
13. Try container/raised bed vegetable gardening I have 5 containers going right now with zucchini, cucumber and tomatoes.
14. Go to the gym at least 8 times a month Succeeded in January and then stopped mid February due to chest pains. Since February, I have gone twice. I suck.
15. Complete a French exercise book I have finally started the book, so at least it's now in progress.
16. Find a new go to hairstyle I have totally found a new hairstyle I like and am using quite frequently. You can see how cute I am in it in the picture below.

Still only one thing completed. Sigh, I don't think this is going to be my year for goals. I made too many that depended on being awesome every month, which is too hard. Next year, smaller more attainable goals is the goal.

How is everyone else doing?

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Father's Day

Today is a day of so many feelings. Feelings of sadness mostly, as I try to keep my chin up and make the most of today. But in all honestly, I find today a little soul crushing.

Today is the day to celebrate fathers and everywhere you look, there appears to be a happy little family out and about with a proud father in the midst. Not us though. Never us.

We don't have any kids to look up at Dan and think he's the best dad in the world. No one to think he is the strongest or bravest or funnest man who ever walked this earth. No one to jump into his arms and give him a big hug and say "Happy Father's Day Daddy".

What we get instead is a sinking feeling as we lie in bed listening to the birds sing and feel the sun stream in. A cloud hanging over us as we get up, get our breakfast and eat in silence. A feeling of jealousy and sadness all mixed into one as we peruse through Facebook and are inundated with Father's Day posts.

We want what everyone else seems to have. We want it so much.

Today is extra hard for me too, because I don't have my Dad here to celebrate with anymore. Even though this will be the third Father's Day since he died, it is hitting me the hardest. I just have a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes as I try my best to get through today.

I miss him a lot. I miss his smile and his humour and his hugs. I miss hearing his voice, telling me he loves me and is proud of me. I miss being able to call him today and tell him he is the best Dad in the whole wide world. I just miss him so much.

Maybe I should stop trying so hard and just succumb to the sadness and curl up in bed and cry. Because today is hard and that is okay. Hard days happen to the best of us.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Kitchen Destruction Begins

I apologize for not getting a post up last week showing pictures of how our house is currently looking, all semi finished and beautiful. But you see, life happened and pictures didn't get taken. And then, then disaster happened and pretty house pictures will have to wait. By disaster, I don't actually mean anything too bad, just that we started our kitchen reno and that was the end of my house looking half put together.

We finally decided to start our kitchen, which meant we needed to begin by taking up the old floors. In case you can't remember what they looked like, here is a nice before picture of our empty dining room, right before we tore everything to bits.

The flooring itself wasn't that bad and we probably would have left it if the previous owners had installed in properly. But alas, no such luck. There were bumps and dips and it was already starting to peel up in some places. So up it came.

There were four layers of flooring total, with two different underlays used. It was quite the job getting it all up, especially when we ran into mold between two of the layers. It turns out that the dishwasher has been leaking but no one knew because there were so many dang layers of floor to hide the puddle! Fortunately, once we got the moldy flooring up, the sub floor was in pretty good condition.

We pulled all the flooring up in the dining room in one afternoon, although it felt like a lifetime with the heat and humidity we were having. We don't have our air conditioner hooked up yet so we were working in a very hot house. The next afternoon, still in the heat, we tackled the staples/nails/screws in the dining room. It was dreadful.

Seriously, it took forever. I guess that's what 40 years and 4 layers of flooring gets you.

Our next step was pulling up the flooring around the cabinets in the kitchen, so as to leave us a working kitchen for as long as possible. We didn't see the need to lose our counters and sink before we needed to.

We lived with these sub floors for almost a week, until Dan went a little crazy yesterday. He had the day off work so while I was working, he tackled the lower cabinets and the rest of the flooring.

These are the pictures he sent to me around lunch time yesterday.

Craziness! Good bye old kitchen and hello renovation mess! Again.

I arrived home to a living room full of kitchen stuff and Dan starting to lay the new flooring.

I, being the wonderful wife that I am, immediately changed into my work clothes and got to work helping with the flooring. By 7:30pm, we had the new floor in and our kitchen back to working order. Minus any counters though.

It feels so nice to have all the same floor everywhere and not have any weird seams or crevices for dirt to get stuck in. And everything feels so open without any lower cupboards. Having no countertops to work on is going to take some getting used to, but luckily for me I am married to a plumber and I have a little dishes station all set up.

Isn't it cute? He installed the sink and I worked out my mini countertop for the dish rack. It's a little precarious, but it works. I have running water in the kitchen and a working stove and fridge. What more can I ask for?

So that is what our current state of renovations looks like. Our next step will be tearing out the upper cabinets and then cutting out the backsplash. Once that's done, we need to repair the walls and paint before moving in our new cabinets and getting counters measured and ordered. So many steps yet, but we are on our way!