As I wrote a bit about in this post from November, I've been dealing with stress and anxiety a lot this past year. It's been really hard on me in a lot of ways and I told myself that I would try and use 2019 to rest and work on me.
Starting January 1st, I was no longer employed outside of the home and since then have been getting into a new flow and rhythm of working from home. I am continuing to do the books for Dan's business, while also taking on new responsibilities like answering the phone, scheduling work, doing bank and wholesaler runs and just being worlds best assistant. Obviously that last one comes super naturally to me. <--- sarcasm
To be honest, while I am absolutely loving being home (it's totally my happy place) and I do not regret leaving my job at all, the last few months have been a bit of a struggle. It's winter, I'm all of a sudden alone a lot, and I still have all the emotional baggage that I had last year. It's tricky how that works, where the hard stuff just doesn't disappear once a new calendar year flips over.
So one of the things I have been doing to combat this struggle while also working on taking care of me, is doing more yoga. I started this habit in the fall, when trying to deal with some anxiety and the effects it was having on my body, but I really turned it up a notch in January. I decided to join a 30 day yoga journey. And you guys, I totally did it. All of it. I showed up on my mat every single day for 30 days.
I started out optimistic but also realistic, knowing that I very well may not do every single day. But I was gentle with myself and forgiving and took it one day at a time.
I'm not going to lie, those first few days were really hard, not just mentally but also physically. Some people think yoga is pretty easy but if you actually do it you will realize it's harder than it looks! Especially for someone like me who is not at all flexible and is pretty wimpy when it comes to working out. So my muscles definitely felt it over the first week and I wasn't sure if I'd be able to tough it out.
But I did! I had encouragement from some friends who were doing it alongside me (I'm looking at you Cora and Ali) and Dan was a huge support when it was 9pm and yoga was the last thing I wanted to do. I carved time out of my day to put on the yoga video, roll out my mat and take time to slow down, to stretch and to reflect.
Over the month I noticed improvements in my mood, in my anxiety symptoms and in my flexibility. I tried new poses, I laughed, I cried and I fell over more than once. I am far from where I would like to be but I made progress over the month and I'm proud of that.
The 30 days came to a close and I kept going, that's how much I loved it and found it beneficial. I actually did a 53 day streak of yoga before breaking it and getting into more of a routine that works with my daily life.
So there you have it, a photo journey of me doing yoga every damn day (for a while) and how much I enjoyed it.
Do you have any rituals or things you do to help alleviate your anxiety? Or maybe you have found yoga beneficial too!